i guess since its been so long sinces i've blogged and i've got nth to do now, i shall blog.. lol been like wat? 3 weeks? since i last blogged.. omg so many things happened lah.. well, was busy lah, and also didnt feel like blogging lor... hmm lets see, tests comin liao leh, and this sem they change back, mst AFTER hols.. zz why.. stupid now i must study during hols lah.. oh well, i doubt i will study much also lah.. but i guess this time i will study ba.. cannot keep up wif my reputation rite, must change abit..
hmm recently lots and lots of ppl sayin i'm growing bigger and bigger lah.. zz i cant help it... too much buffets and good food.. lol watever lah, fat jiu fat lah, dont wanna care anymore.. hopes, dreams, figure, watever, all crashed, nth left for me in this world.. all thats missing are some suicidal thoughts lol, i repeat - missing, means i'm not suicidal, lol, ok watever, dunno why, i've been thinking how small little actions can affect another person soo much.. their all small little things, their no big deal really, but if they add on and on, they start to sting, and then hurt. so i wonder if theres also someone who is affected by the small little things that i'm doin, from wat i see everyday, almost everyone has that someone doin these small little things(unknowingly) that hurt the other people. i've come to the conclusion that i hav no such person.
its like fate, like i'm destined to become an outcast, pri sch-sec sch, i went to a sch that no other ppl of that whole year joined.. after that i switched sch, to grss. from there ties start building again, then onwards to poly, again i find myself being the only one from my group that went to SP. and now in sp, been in a class for 1 yr already, due to a stupid mistake on my part, i'm once again the only guy to hav become an outcast. is this how i'm gonna live my life... sigh.. i wish i dont hav a heart.. that way i cant feel anything at all.
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